April 5th, 2004

life begins - me

great, just wonderful

So I'm not having a great day so far, I hate being ill but since I don't eat properly and I do have insomnia I tend to pick up whatever bug's going around. So I get ill a lot.

Felt okay yesterday, tired maybe but nothing major, couldnt sleep (surprise, surprise) and then when I finally got up this morning I'm weak as water and can barely speak because my throat feels like sandpaper. I just want to crawl back to bed and sleep but everytime I try to sleep my mind just starts working again. So, I'm sitting in front of my computer with a blanket wrapped aroud me writing two stories at the same time and wondering who I can get to go get me some Lemsip 'cos there's none in the house...

Expect the next parts of World's Collide and Slayerless to be ever so slightly obscure ... (like they aren't already....)

I'm meant to be training two newbies at work today and I dread to think what they're being told by whoever's been roped into the training role...
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    Will Young - it's on the radio
life begins - me

tortured soul

Today is the tenth anniversary of the death of the voice of my generation. I was a very mixed up teenager and at the start of the nineties, I fell into a spiral of depression. I latched onto the music of Nirvana because it resonated with me. Kurt Cobain managed to put into lyrics everything I was feeling.

For once it was okay to be me, to be whatever the hell I wanted to be. It didn't matter what other people thought of me, the only person I had to be true to was myself. Kurt Cobain made me believe in myself again.

And then he killed himself.

He was the very definition of a tortured soul but he was also (excuse the language) a fucking idiot.

Rest easy Kurt.
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    Nirvana - Polly