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03 October 2006 @ 05:53 pm
Yeah, not doing that meme  
Seriously, if you guys need me to tell you how I feel about civil rights as part of a 'meme' then why are you reading this? Not to negate anyone who has done/will do the meme, but I'm not intending to do it.

Back from therapy, still dislike her, she thinks I don't need medication and that all I need to do is get out more and stop isolating myself. Me, I think NaNoWriMo is going to be a great challenge and I know (from last year) that it won't destroy me if I don't complete it (although I still really want to and aiming for it!), she thinks I'm isolating myself again and avoiding social contact. She and I are never going to agree are we?

So... I'm not babysitting again tonight, Sis is giving herself a break from the hospital (one thing me and my therapist agree on is that I was pushing myself way too hard to try to make Sis's life easier to the point where I seriously crashed on Saturday) and although I think part of that might be because I flaked on her, I'm not so paranoid today to think that she's rejecting me.

Oh, and a word of advice for everyone. If you're in a rush in the morning and instead of doing last night's dishes you choose to 'hide' them in the oven, make sure you take them out again before you turn the oven on that night...
 
 
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
 
 
 
Joel Mortonphysicsteach on October 3rd, 2006 06:30 pm (UTC)
You should think about finding a new counselor. They don't have any business advising you on meds unless they have an MD.
the girl who used to dance on fire and brimstone: annie hall//forgot my mantra - mewhiskyinmind on October 4th, 2006 07:53 am (UTC)
It's a tough situation because she's an NHS counselor. If I ask to see someone else because it's not working out with her I'll end up back on the NHS waiting list which is, I believe, eighteen months. I was incredibly lucky to get onto the service initially in as short a time as I did.

And I agree, she shouldn't have been saying anything either way about meds - I got the impression that she was seeing my plan to ask the GP as having a negative reflection on her. Which it kinda is.
velvetwhipvelvetwhip on October 3rd, 2006 06:36 pm (UTC)
I really wonder about your therapist...


Gabrielle
the girl who used to dance on fire and brimstone: annie hall//forgot my mantra - mewhiskyinmind on October 4th, 2006 07:56 am (UTC)
I was starting to wonder if it was just me, and obviously I'm a bit of an unreliable narrator, but some of the things she says/does strike me as being... not good.

"Can you tell me why this doesn't exactly fill me with joy, Shona?"
"I don't know, it's (NaNoWriMo) something I'm getting excited about and am optimistic about so that's surely a good thing?"
"Yes, but think about it, can you see why this doesn't fill me with joy?"

No! I have no idea why you think the first thing I've been even slightly *up* about is not a good thing! *outloud* "No."
velvetwhip: Piss Off by emeraldswanvelvetwhip on October 4th, 2006 04:27 pm (UTC)
What is this manipulative crap she's pulling?

"Can you tell me why this doesn't exactly fill me with joy, Shona?"

My answer to that? No, bitch, why don't you tell me what you're feeling since obviously I'm the most emotionally healthy person here and *I* should be the damn therapist!



Gabrielle