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26 June 2007 @ 02:32 pm
I love you guys...  
I'm... better.

I think.

I was at work yesterday and I posted to IJ in a post which broke me. It was lunchtime, I got up, I went and locked myself into the staff toilets and cried until I could look in the mirror and wonder how all these Hollywood types can do the crying thing without getting bright red noses. I had bumped into a girl who knows my situation on the way but she obviously saw what state I was in and didn't say anything.

This morning when she came in, she walked up to my desk and started singing to me. I forget what she sang but she admitted thirty seconds later that she was only doing it to make me laugh.

It worked.

As did the recs you guys gave me yesterday - I've still to start Distant Relations and to read more than one part of Things I learned My Freshman Year Of College (damn you J2 for sucking me into RPS... (still not a fan of RPS, this is AU enough that I'm choosing to read this as a happy coincidence that the actors are playing characters with the same names...)) but all of the others have either made me grin, laugh, or feel all warm and snuggly (yes, wenchpixie, I'm looking at you here...). So thank you.

And I'm still up for any and all recs you guys want to give me (because I'm a fic whore really).

Those of you who got to see my IJ entry (which is flocked on IJ) - I'm not so self-deprecating now. I still doubt my abilities in a way that I figure is partly healthy and partly not-so-healthy, but I don't think I'm a bad person anymore. Honest.

I'm still down, and I'm still a little AWOL (akthough you'd never know it apart from missing comment replies...) but I'm getting there.

Thank you all.

(and I don't say it enough - I really appreciate all of you guys putting up with my swings. I know I can go from hyper and bouncing all over the place to the absolute doldrums, and I know that can be unpredctable and annoying. I really do appreciate you guys, I am so lucky to be blessed with friends like you.)
Current Mood: lovedloved
Current Music: The Real Jason & The Argonauts documentary
Dirtyleckiagt_league on June 26th, 2007 02:04 pm (UTC)
Aw, we love ya too Sho. *hugs* <3
the girl who used to dance on fire and brimstone: spn//jensen adorkable - mewhiskyinmind on June 28th, 2007 09:52 am (UTC)

thank you!
Dirtylecki: sam dean special hellagt_league on June 28th, 2007 11:02 am (UTC)
Anytime! :-D
laura: chris on stagehopeless_cynic on June 26th, 2007 04:24 pm (UTC)
Hey hun, glad you're feeling better *hugs*

I couldn't think of any recs to send you, but glad you've got some to read (I've read Things I Learned My Freshman Year Of College - it's such a brilliant series, & it's totally AU lol)!

Anyway, I'm pretty much constantly online (usually. Not so much at the moment, but... well, you get my point!), so you know where I am :)
the girl who used to dance on fire and brimstone: music//kane - mewhiskyinmind on June 28th, 2007 09:53 am (UTC)

thank you sweetie! I've pretty much been going to work and then crashing as soon as I get in the house this week so I've not been online a whole lot.

We *really* need to get caught up soon though!
velvetwhip: Angel/Willow Love by emeraldswanvelvetwhip on June 26th, 2007 04:31 pm (UTC)
:::hugs you tightly:::

You are not the least bit annoying, hon.

the girl who used to dance on fire and brimstone: willow/xander//embrace (pack) - mewhiskyinmind on June 28th, 2007 09:54 am (UTC)

I get so frustrated with myself a lot of the time that I blow it out of proportion and think everyone who's ever met is fed up with me. Depression sucks.
velvetwhip: Angelus Velvet Whip by emeraldswanvelvetwhip on June 28th, 2007 02:28 pm (UTC)
I know, believe me. But we love you, sweetheart.

gumboy: Dale - Thumbs Upgumboy on June 26th, 2007 05:00 pm (UTC)
*wags finger at you*

You better cheer up. There's only so much crack I can deliver on a daily basis.
the girl who used to dance on fire and brimstone: text//DUDE!!!! - wenchpixiewhiskyinmind on June 26th, 2007 05:12 pm (UTC)

I demand more crack!


(thank you - really, thank you.)
Damereldamerel on June 26th, 2007 06:03 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry you're having a rough time at the moment, but please don't ever think you're annoying, or I will have to send in the Winchesters to salt and burn that completely false spectre.

Ah. Now I see your plan. Three Winchesters coming right up.

*hugs you*
the girl who used to dance on fire and brimstone: spn//text - dean's imaginary friendwhiskyinmind on June 28th, 2007 09:55 am (UTC)
damn. My plan was that transparent? But hey, so long as it gets results...



Thank you honey!
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the girl who used to dance on fire and brimstone: spn//dean laptop smirk - mewhiskyinmind on June 28th, 2007 09:56 am (UTC)

Definitely worked.

(as does the fact that I see you've mentioned you're in the mood to write more Blue Bear. *nudges you in that direction* you know you want to...)
lmzjewel on June 26th, 2007 08:19 pm (UTC)
(Hugs) Glad your feeling a bit better today. And I wanted to let you know that. I finally got that Xander/Faith story posted. I hope you like. (:

the girl who used to dance on fire and brimstone: FX - mewhiskyinmind on June 28th, 2007 09:57 am (UTC)

thank you honey!

'cause of the rating I want to read it at home, so it's open in a tab in the house and I swear I will not go home and fall asleep tonight before I read it!

Thank you so much!
angelnetgirlangelnetgirl on June 26th, 2007 08:50 pm (UTC)
Hey hun! Sorry I wasnt around to help cheer you up, I have been rather absent from LJ over the last week.

I would rec fic if I had actually managed to read anything, the only one I am really following is the wonderful Lean On Me: http://titheniel.livejournal.com/56035.html#cutid1 there are 7 chapters up so far and it is J2 but it is wonderfully written and just beautiful.

I am just glad you are feeling better and I hope it continues :)
the girl who used to dance on fire and brimstone: text//steve on my phone! - mewhiskyinmind on June 28th, 2007 09:58 am (UTC)

Thank you sweetie! I'm still not really all there, but I'm getting there. (And to be honest it's probably better if I get there slowly rather than jump from one extreme to another.)

Thanks for the rec!
smhwpf on June 27th, 2007 10:53 pm (UTC)

Just got back from awayness and seen this. Glad you're feeling better, and hope that continues.

If you're still looking for feel-good, I'd recommend pretty much all of rayruz's ouevre.
the girl who used to dance on fire and brimstone: willow/xander//embrace (pack) - mewhiskyinmind on June 28th, 2007 09:59 am (UTC)

you're turning into a bit of a jet-setter these days!

Thank you!