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17 April 2010 @ 11:31 am
and the Gold Medal for Pondering goes to...  
I'm havng self-confidence issues again. (Like there's ever a time when I don't.)

I want to write, but it's been so long since I've shared anything that I really don't trust in myself again. I've even had thoughts of sock-puppeting to see if I get any feedback, but then I chicken out.

I have ideas, I have stories which want to be finished, I just don't have the impetus to write.

And on top of that, I was doing a trawl through some of the other icon makers' journals and came across a post which shook my confidence in that area as well. I know I can make good icons. But I don't make great ones. I'm one of the flock and very little of what I do is innovative.

I know this sounds like one of my 'oh my god i'm so depressed' posts, but honestly, I'm not in a bad place right now. Things could be 100 times better, but that's true for everyone, right? I'm being reflective rather than depressive.

I just don't know that I have the ability to stand up and say 'I'm a writer' or 'I'm a digital graphic artist' because right now, I'm not.

And now, in an attempt to be slightly innovative, I'm going to go try to find some UK WWII propaganda posters for a project I ain't talking about yet. And also some Rat Pack pics for another project I ain't talking about (but may have something to do with thedothatgirl having sent me the pilot episode of a show I may have fallen hard for...).

(Oh, also - I now have a bed for the Friday and Saturday night at A4 and a couple of offers of floor space for the Sunday. I LOVE this fandom!)
Current Mood: quixoticquixotic
Current Music: Christian Kane - Shoulda Been A Cowboy
thedothatgirl: AtSHugsthedothatgirl on April 17th, 2010 07:17 pm (UTC)
I think your graphics work is great. I just think because we are a little too close to what we create we can't always see it straight. I know I feel that way about what I make whether it's art/vids/graphics.

I think 'the new show' starts on Bravo this week from scratch - if you don't get that channel then I can send you some. Also did you want Legend o T Seeker S2?